I had a really awful dream last week. So awful I’m not sure I want to tell anyone about it. I don’t often remember dreams, but this one and the thoughts that followed when I awoke have stayed with me for days, so maybe it’s worth sharing.
So here’s the dream (it’s not for the faint-hearted!):
I’m in some sort of hotel room with my best friend Mary (I know, Mare, I’m so sorry for dragging you into this!). It looks okay at first. We’re unpacking our clothes, so there are piles of clothes all over the floor. Then we start to notice that there are also other piles on the floor, piles of… umm… droppings. Then we see these rats darting around the room. Huge, scary rats. We look around and realize that the whole room is infested with rats, and that now all of our clothes are covered in their filth. Eww, I know.
But instead of immediately leaving the room and getting as far away as possible, we both start trying to clean it up. I hold up sweater after sweater to try to find one to wear that doesn’t have too much grossness on it (as if there is an okay amount of rat poop!) We wonder if maybe we could ask to borrow some cleaning supplies from the hotel staff. It never occurs to us that this is not at all okay and we just need to get out!
And then I woke up.
My first thought was, ‘Thank goodness that wasn’t real and I don’t really have to clean it all up!’ But then ‘awake me’ realized what ‘dreaming me’ did not have the clarity of thought to see: if you ever found yourself in a room like that, you could *never* clean it up sufficiently for human occupancy. You would just need a new room (and probably a new hotel). Period.
Do you know where I’m going with this yet?
It occurred to me as I continued to be haunted by this awful scene throughout the day, that that hotel room is a perfect picture of the human condition outside of Christ. We are covered in our sinful flesh, through and through. Our best efforts to please God are like filthy rags, and the worst part is, we just don’t see it. We might look on ourselves and see a little bit of the dirtiness on sin, but we think we can just brush it off and take care of it by our own efforts.
Isaiah 64:6 says this:
All of us have become like one who is unclean, and all our righteous acts are like filthy rags; we all shrivel up like a leaf, and like the wind our sins sweep us away.
God sees sin the way ‘awake me’ saw the situation in my dream – it is offensive and intolerable to Him, and He knew there was no way for us to clean up our own act. Christ didn’t come to the world to show us how to live good lives, though He certainly did that. He came to pay the penalty for our sin, so that God might look on our filth and see instead the spotless righteousness of Christ.
When we accept Christ’s offer of salvation, what we receive from Him is not merely a spiritual makeover, not even an extreme one. We receive a completely new self. And we need it!
The morning after I had this dream was our final study in Colossians at the Ladies’ Bible Study. One of the passages we looked at was this one from Colossians 3 (emphasis mine):
8 But now you must put them all away: anger, wrath, malice, slander, and obscene talk from your mouth. 9 Do not lie to one another, seeing that you have put off the old self with its practices 10 and have put on the new self, which is being renewed in knowledge after the image of its creator.
What a sad state the human heart is in that we must be *told* not to go back to the filth we used to live in once we are freed from it. Yet as I reflect on the reality of a really yucky dream in my own life, I cannot help but realize that I do still have that tendency to look at my own sinful heart and think, “Hey, it’s not so bad – I can clean it up myself.” Only the work of Christ in my life can transform me into the image of my creator. And praise be to God that He can!